Wondering and Pondering....

I have been wondering about something....It is with a very heavy heart that I ponder this thought. How long do you give and give and give before you give up? How long do you try and help only to be rejected time and time again? How long do you give words of advice based on your experience, only to fall on deaf ears?

This is where I am. I know I do not have all of the answers and I am by far perfect, but when you care about someone so much and only want the best for them, when do you stop because it hurts you too much?

As I sat crying feeling sorry for my self and feeling like a failure for trying to help, the Lord spoke to my heart. I would like to interject here that God has the voice of Max Lucado to me...if you have watched any of the Hermie video's you will know what I am talking about. If I am sitting here this hurt and pained by what is happening in my itty bitty human life, oh, how must God feel when we do not heed his PERFECT advice?? I can hear him saying, with pain in his voice (like Max Lucado), "Oh, my child, if you would only listen". He must have the same goals that I have had...to help, make life so much easier, be an encouragement, be a friend...only to be rejected. I will tell you, this is hurting me so bad, I can only imagine what God must feel.

This also makes me think of gratitude...again...how long do you keep giving to someone when it goes unappreciated? Now, I am not talking about getting the "Giver of the Year" award or anything like that, but a simple Thank You...I appreciate it...would be nice every once in a while. I think a person can only go so long doing something for someone without hearing Thank You. Now, I realize that there are many thankless jobs out there and that many people do things because they love doing it and would do it without ever hearing Thank You. And once again, I wonder how it hurts God to not hear Thank You.

We hear of John 3:16 so many times, but, I think it goes even farther than Eternal Life...I believe that it can also be relevent to our everyday life....

John 3:16 (The Message)

^16-18"This is how much God loved the world: He gave his Son, his one and only Son. And this is why: so that no one need be destroyed; by believing in him, anyone can have a whole and lasting life. God didn't go to all the trouble of sending his Son merely to point an accusing finger, telling the world how bad it was. He came to help, to put the world right again. Anyone who trusts in him is acquitted; anyone who refuses to trust him has long since been under the death sentence without knowing it. And why? Because of that person's failure to believe in the one-of-a-kind Son of God when introduced to him.

We can have a WHOLE life...a fulfilled life...God does not want us to live an unfulfilled life or a partial life...but a WHOLE life...and ANYONE can have a whole life. Even today, no one needs to be destroyed in spirit...those that are downtrodden and wounded...my heart breaks for them. I need to remember that I am not Jesus, Jr....I can not fix or make whole...only Jesus can do that...but can I be Jesus with skin on?? Yes....

Too Much TV???

Oh, my....

This is the latest story Jake has for us...and he truly believes it to be true...He is going to be in for a rude awakening, I'm afraid.

So...we are going to Disney for vacation. The other night, as we are laying in bed talking about our day, he says to me,

"Mommy, while we are at Disney, the workers are going to come and knock our house down!"

Me: "Jake, I'm sorry, but that is not going to happen to our house".

He continued with this thought for quite some time....and then on Sunday...he elaborated even more.

J: Mommy, are you taking your cell phone to Disney?

M: Yes, Jake, I am definitely taking my cell phone to Disney.

J: Daddy...and you HAVE to take your laptop to Disney.

D: Why Jake?

J: So when we are at Disney, the workers can call us and show us what they are doing to our house!

My child is absolutely convinced that we are coming home to a new house because ours is really old! Like, is more than convinced....I am almost scared to come home!!

No more Extreme Home Makeover for him!!!! And I thought that was a safe show for him to watch!! Apparantly not!!!

More Funny Stuff....

The other evening, Kailey wasn't listening too well and I had to pull out the full name...Kailey Isabelle...

Well, Jake was quite quick to correct me..."Mommy, Kailey is NOT a bell!!!"

I had to laugh at him...and of course...Kailey didn't quite get it.

YAY Jake!!!!!

Jake has done it!!!  He has moved up a level in his swim lessons!!!  I am so proud of him!!!  It is bittersweet, though, because it is proof right in front of me that he is growing up so fast!

It is even more bittersweet when I think of a friend of mine's niece, who at just 2 years old, lost her life to Leukemia.  She also had down's syndrome and many, many heart problems.  Her heart was just too sick to treat the cancer.  You can see more here.  My heart just breaks for them and I just want to hold on to Jake so tightly!!  Please keep their family in you prayers.

More T Ball Pics!

Good Job, Jake!

Nice hit!

Foul Ball

Throwing to 1st Base

T-Ball!!!

We found a 3 - 6 yr. old T Ball league here in Waynesboro!!!  Of course, we jumped on the opportunity!!!  Jake had his first practice last night.  3 year olds playing T Ball is just way too cute and funny...even if you don't have your own 3 year old.

Getting a little instruction from the coach

Eagerly waiting for the ball to be hit to him

I have more pictures, of course, but Jake has been asking all morning to go out and play catch, so off we go to play catch.  And how nice of Daddy to dig out his old softball glove to give me to play catch with Jake....I'm so not a baseball kind of girl!!!

Kids Say the Darndest Things....

I may regret posting these later, but Jake has come up with some doosies lately....This first one, I'm not sure if I was happy we were in a restaurant or mortified....you'll see why....

A conversation with Jake and Daddy....talking about what we needed to get done after we got home...

Daddy:  Jake, you need to pick up all your toys from the living room and put them in your play room.

Jake:  Where's my playroom???  (because it has several names, the front room, the play room, the toy room)

Daddy:  In the front room, Jake.

Jake:  Daddy...where is your play room???

Daddy:  I don't have a play room...well...I guess the living room is my play room...it has all of my toys.  (does the couch count as a toy??)

Jake:  Daddy...but your bedroom could be your playroom.

And I'll leave it at that!!!  LOL.  

Lately, ever since I did a maternity session that Jake was there for, Jake has been convinced that he has a baby in his tummy...and he will let you know that he does!  Well...he and Daddy had quite the conversation about how only girls have babies in their bellies.  Jake wholeheartedly disagrees and informed Daddy that when he grows up he will have a baby in his belly!!!

I really, really need to be better about writing these things down as he keeps me laughing a lot these days.